Updates....

Meh, I've been so lazy on myself it's amazing.

I am still enjoying the holiday, and I am doing all this blogging in my parents' friend's apartment.
Although I can't say I've gained anything new during this time that I want (especially in perspective of a relationship :P ), but in all those seemingly normal things, I believe I've still learnt and felt quite a few things about life.

I spent much time thinking, about things, about my life, about the world, about so much things, sometimes I really hope my head can just shutup and things will just be alright. But I guess this is the time of great confusion, I'm now 18, I need to think about job, life, my goal and all that things that make me feel like I am already facing the end of my life.

Perhaps that may be true, I am facing the end of my adolescence, now come to think about it, I might've "wasted" much time not thinking about what I should've done, so now it's a reminder to myself...

• Do those things so that later I will be better off (like learning, getting job oppotunities...)
• Do those things that I might hesitate because you will only live once, and all those embaressment may be much shorter than that regret... think clear then take decisive action.

It's scary, you can feel youself chaging, doing what you thought "what-you-should-do" and it becomes of "what-you-do" and therefore becomes part of you. This blog is a reminder to myself of what I was, my struggle, my fear, for that little nolstalgia to come in a few years.